(Poem) Black Heart

 

Heading back into my cave

Detoxing from my feelings

Keeping my thoughts to myself

I’ve become heartless

That heartless monster I said I’d never become

With not one ounce of care

My heart is black

Sitting in my cave

Rewinding back

Back to where my heart was black

They say listen to your heart

But my heart is black

Building my walls back up

Letting go of the feelings I once had

It’s not you, its me

I am darker then usual

Leaving everything behind

Trying this new wave

Hoping that I stop losing and finally win one

Realizing that no one is ever ready

Ima take a step back

            And let my heart become black

They brought me up

            To the point where I was the happiest

Then let me go

            Like I was a seasonal fixture

No longer in my feelings

I rather my heart be black

Black without a care in the world

I’m done chasing “what ifs”

            And I’m letting go of “what could be”

I’m done appreciating those

            Who don’t appreciate me

I’m done caring too much

            And being the old me

I’m overdosing on this “ I don’t give a fuck” mentality”

Losing friends along the way but

            I’m on this new wave

Gone with the wind

            I’ve become this heartless monster

Letting go of the old me

            And embracing the new

I’ve allowed my heart to become black

With not once ounce of care

I’ve become this black-hearted monster

~Kevin Pierre